*~A Tal3 Of My L!f3~*

Monday, December 11, 2006

LOVE...Its sumting dats complicated n can nvr be understood...seriuzly..till now,i cant understand the meaning of it..is it to give all dat u have for dat sum1??or issit to sacrifice everiting dat u have jus to be wit dat sum1??i dont tink both is rite..but sum ppl i noe act like dey already noe the meaning of LOVE...dey brag about their love life n all..but it got me tinking,is LOVE abot u bragging bout how ur LOVE life is doing n how fantastic it is??nah dat cudnt be it..but wen i see couples pass by me,its like they are so happy together,like ders nuting in dis world dat can stop them...i mus admit dat is kinda nice to have sum1 to b der wen u nid them n to share ur pain n lafter..n i mus admit dat i miss having sum1 hu cud really b der wen i nid them...or is LOVE about being der fer dat sum1 wen dey nid u??hmm...
the questions still lingers in my mind...

let me tell u wat got me wanting to blog about all dos crap above...

i dono y,but suddenly i feel like im missing sumting in my life..sumting dat i cudnt explain..n dat got me tinkin bout my love life last time...yes..im missing it...haiz...the feeling of sum1 hu loves u n care for u..the feeling of sum1 hu is der wen u need dem the most...the feeling of waking up each dae jus to c dat special sum1...haiz...but wen i tink it bck,all dos tings brought misery to my life..brought saddness to my life..n shattered a whole heart into a million pieces..n dats were i realise dat LOVE is sumting very complicating...it can bring joy n happines into ur life but at the same time bring hurt...i had a few relationships which i cherish alot...1 was 1 yr n 3 mnths...she left me bcos i didnt gv her enuf attention n her abg angkat which is now her guy,gave her the attention dat she needed...dat was like 1 yr plus of being together going dwn the drain..n it still hurts..till now...another 1 is only about 1 mnth..she was my best fren..we were really close n eventually we became a couple..but,she still had a heart for her ex n she left me hanging jus like dat...but now shes still my bestfren lah..haha..but seriuzly..it hurts...alot...n another 1 was a gerl frm my skol...yes i admit i admire her n like her in a certain wae,but tings didnt turn out the wae i wanted it too...all dos pain...if only i cud trow away all the sadness in my life,my life wud be a better 1..

i use to be a guy hu gives n takes n forgive n forget..but now im not able to do dat..ppl have been taking me for granted n im not goin bck to wat i was b4...it hurts to be taken for granted..its like ur jus sum1 hu can be thrown away wen dey r done wit u...n i was feeling dat wae wen my ex did dat to me..wen they found sum1 new,dey throw me aside..n wen they get hurt by the one dat they love,they come bck to me...aku ni aper??kekasih part time per??it hurts..it hurts alot..n i cant get dat sadnes out..i smile,laf,crack jokes n make ppl laf..but do dey noe the sadnes dats inside me?the sadnes dats been kept inside for yrs..the loneliness i feel in life..they dont..n id rather they dont noe..its better..haiz...

its better to keep my mouth shut n my heart closed...

till here guys..

chalo mano..

over n out..
raimi..

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